Beat FM OAP, Tolu Oniru, otherwise known as Toolz revealed her agony after she lost her baby.
She disclosed that going through labour pains while fully knowing that her baby was dead was heavy on her and broke her.
Speaking to Genevieve Magazine, Toolz spoke about the difficult topic for the first time since it happened in 2017.
She said; “From the point we found out something was wrong till when the process was over was quite harrowing, but the parts that really broke me were going through the pain of labour knowing my baby was already gone,”
“I also had a mini-break down when I had to get a death certificate so we could have a burial. I don’t think I’ve ever cried so much in my life.”
The 35-year-old also shared how she was bedridden in the hospital for a while. She noted that at the time she was, “shaken, broken, rebuilt,” Toolz said it “ultimately it strengthened my relationship with God.”
“It made me realise how delicate life is, and as much as we say ‘I will do this or that’ it is inevitably down to God’s will. “In December I wrote that everyone will go through trying times, you just have to pray for the strength to get through it. ” she said.
When asked about the role of her husband, Tunde Demuren during the experience she said; “I actually went into labour whilst I was making his breakfast.
“I tried to finish because he is such a big foodie, but the pain was too much and I was bundled off in the ambulance. Maybe it was the gas and air or temporary insanity, but I remember asking the medics to stop so we could get some food for him.
“They thought I was mad. We can laugh about that now. I think this experience brought us closer, and also made us realise how much we love each other. He made me pray, and he didn’t give up till I had emptied my heart out.”